she only loves her stereo

all i gotta say is, dont roll up in here like you know this guy. he lurks in gap boxes and knows whassup. hes also a trooper and recently got sack-surgery that he tends to night and day.

WELL SOMETIMES

WELLL SOMETIMESSSS

i dont feel like saying anything. or writing anything. cause sometimes there are

no

words.

except this is something that i find funny but also angers me in many ways. i mean, im not at all FOR animal cruelty. but why do i want to punch this dog in the face SO BAD? i know a few people that wouldn't necessarily agree, but probably wouldnt stop me. marco will also think that this dog is just ridiculous, but im not going to ask him because he already knows that he would probably punch it too. mahina wouldnt punch it but she would yell at it or at least yell at a picture of it. sheila is just going to laugh at me while i punch it but she'll just judge me later. the rest of the world is judging me right now.

whatever. im mind-punching it. and its owner.

IF I HAD TO CHOOSE SOMEONE YOUNGER?

popppiiiiin....popppiiiiiiiiinnnn....

acceptable!

CHEER UP BRIGHT EYES

:X

i hope you know that sometimes i'd like to write a list about every way that you've wronged me. not necessarily wronged me, but i'd like to keep account of every time youve been wrong. i hate the things you say and how you treat people sometimes. you think you're cute? id hate to think that i had any bearing on your attitude. if the way i joke with our friends has affected you this much, then shoot me; ive created a monster. it's straight ugly the way you hide things. its uglier to me cause i see right through you. you dont confide in me anymore because deep down you probably know that i know. and that i hate it. like sometimes i wanna pull you to the side and put my thumbs in your sockets to keep them from rolling. and i wanna take your phone away because i know what you're doing, even though you dont. and you think i dont know your ways or the ways, which is stupid cause i swear i invented them. you think i dont know when youre lying and that i cant see right through you. and im mad that everyone got to say their peace, and i didnt. i didnt get to scream on the inside while choosing my words carefully on the outside. did you know that sometimes i feel so disappointed in you? like, i see you in my peripheral vision, looking at me. youre wondering why im not acknowledging you and why i dont look you in the eye when i talk to you. well its mostly fear that i'll explode were i even to get started. and im disappointed that im at all disappointed. like, we shouldnt even be in this situation. you think i dont know that it's not easy? well, ive been through it and i'd think that everything i told you would have an effect on you. but no; are you stupid enough to think that experience is the best teacher? you think its smart to just learn from your mistake. but why cant you see its smarter to learn from the mistakes of others? i loved being proud of you, and i hate that the reasons why i once did are now all a blur. maybe you think that because ive been in silence so long that it doesnt matter to me what you do. but it does. to more important people than just me. im pissed that im pissed. quit giving me a reason to be. just cause,
things arent supposed to be this way.

here comes the sun

ethan took this and well, we always take pictures at our seats. i wish it were closer but OH, ITS OKAY.

WE ARE COUSINS, CAN YOU TELL?


i like that the stage is so close. remember back in the day when we'd have to bring binoculars and you sat in "LODGES" and stuff. haha LODGES

um this is a family picture. we're in front of a plant cause thats just what you do. we're missing the eldest and a b.i.l., so i guess these are the singles. we're so grown up now HAHA

and we're really mature and still cousins.



day;


man ! i wish i had more. ill probably steal some from haz later. kekeke i have nothing else. sorry guys.

AS IN--

there are hardly any words to truly convey all the emotions experienced today. heaping plates of spiritual food. my brothers are now reallyyy my brothers. its sometimes overwhelming seeing the changes in someone; such genuine smiles and sentiments. AHHH, it's crazy. its so wonderful celebrating with people things that are worth celebrating. oh that doesnt make sense, oh you dont get it ! most people dont. as in, most in the world. or all of the world. majority of the world! mannnn
SO WHAT THEN?! IM GETTING OLD OR WHAT?! --i can picture mahina saying that. i mean, im saying it, but im saying it the way mahina would. im saying this cause i think its a sign of maturity when you can see things from your parents' view. as in, im looking at all of my little brothers and sisters making such wonderful progress. as in, like having good goals and sticking with good friends with similar goals. as in, encouraging ME to do more; more FULLY. so yeah, i got all of these spiritual siblings, and we have such a good time doing whatever. field, or just like, laughing, talking, beaching, hanging, play-cards'ing, pooling, and blahblah'ing. and so i see them and i get scared sometimes too. like, 'dont mess up ok, guys? lets just do everything right together, k guys?' i never understood before, but i guess now i do. theres this fear where you just wanna protect them from everything. i wanna homeschool them myself, screen their calls, give them talks and mini lectures at every possible moment and just make sure that nothing happens. but then you cant, right? cause they gotta do things themselves and learn themselves and grow in appreciation themselves. sometimes words dont even help and its so frustrating when its in one ear, out the other. so you just gotta do everything by example, right? just do right and hope they do the same. and hope you taught em right. but then youre still worried but also proud of them cause every good decision they make just instills within you confidence in them. thinking of everything, it hurts a lot to lose someone. these are just plain words, cause i cant find the right ones. it hurts when something is so incredibly real to you...and when see others acting contrary to what you know is right. like when youre growing in appreciation but at the same time youre watching those you care about drifting away. which is why i worry; which is why im glad my friends now dont give me reason to worry; which is why i hope they never make me worry; which is why i'd never want to give them reason to worry. anyway, i hope everyone can see how much i love my friends. even my younger friends, who i think are in so many ways, cooler than me. some not as cool as me, but c'mon nowww; that's hard to be. even friends that are so far away but are there in mind and spirit. the one that i know is doing good; the one i always pray for. its really true that nothing compares to this brotherhood. you probably dont understand, but thats ok cause most dont.

CHEESEFESTS and whatnots. these pictures kinda suck but yeah; love you guys so much, it sometimes hurts.

i love it!

some kind of wonderful

WELLLL, IT'S ALL RELATIVE. KASLA KABSAT. KASLAAAA.

here's kevin and glendo. get it?

ellen degeneres..

WELL, IF YOU KNEW WHAT WE WERE LAUGHING AT, WE'D BE MUSTED. MUSTED. JUST... HAHAHHAHA

and this is where im literally getting musted. getting pinched cause im getting musted. musted for laughing at a situation that you'd also laugh at, but would get musted for. this is janelle's, "how dare you, you better quit laughing *pinch*" and the other 2 AGREE. they agree....

MUSTED !

well, we just like watching boxes and pointing or something, but we are cousins, but it's special cause we're also friends.

but c'mon this is crazy cause this is true love; true-er love, between a BRO 'ISTER. they are inseperable, he feels her pain, and their friendship is greater.

and we are cousins and friends but this is crazy cause we're also sisters, the bestest kind that's better than blood.

an eric just got PWNED by a 3 (4?) year old. haha this is funny cause its like "PUT EM UPPPP, PUT EM UPPPPP !!"

and they just got finished dancing..... beautiful.

MORE STUFF LATER

FOR HEEN WAY.

two things--

for un,

Main Entry: 1amaze
Pronunciation: &-'mAz
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): amazed; amaz·ing
Etymology: Middle English amasen, from Old English Amasian, from A- (perfective prefix) + *masian to confuse -- more at ABIDE
transitive verb
1 obsolete : BEWILDER, PERPLEX
2 : to fill with wonder : ASTOUND
intransitive verb : to show or cause astonishment
synonym see SURPRISE
- amaz·ed·ly /-'mA-z&d-lE/ adverb


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for deux,

im trying so hard not to be mean but....
what do you know?



ILIKEIT.

still.

i think about it now, and i wish i still knew you. i wish we still had tangible ties, rather than what we have now-- mere pretense and these same standard lines. but i still know what to say to make you smile; the same humor to make you laugh. how exactly we ended up here is somewhat of a blur. personal differences, i think ? insufficient amount of level-headedness and composure on my part. spurred on by one significant event-- "perhaps 'misunderstandings' like are what it takes a person to recognize where they stand on their feelings towards another." i suppose all of that still holds true. regardless of what happened in the past, i still have an affinity towards you and our aforementioned relationship. but our set-out paths have changed; you've chosen a different one, and even my own meanders. while time apart, or absence, should have made the heart grow fonder, it has in reality had an adverse affect on our friendship-- not necessarily a negative one, but one that can be viewed as stronger. apart, yes...but enduring, as you are endearing. your invitations to partake in the things you deem fun are well-taken... and greatly appreciated-- as i am sure you view mine with the same sentiment. but while what we had has faded, rest assured that our moments together have in no way done so, but instead have added to the contrast and saturation to the captured moments set within me. eek; i'm still convinced your 'half day' was the cause of our demise, but perhaps there's a deeper, underlying reason. i miss you in many ways, and am convinced that there are aspects of myself that no one else could possibly understand the way you could.

some things will always apply.
one word-- maintain.