First Day Of My Life

this makes me one of those people that blog from their smart-phones. I guess that makes me suck, but that's okay.

it's recently dawned on me that the today marks the official year of being back home.
the moment between an inhale and an exhale can carry enough weight to sink a cruise liner. a slow gulp carries more honesty than a quick smile. they may not make much sense, but its to put emotion and time into perspective. the year back feels like both an eternity and a blink. a year ago from today i made the silent resolution to live up to certain failures and to right certain wrongs. it's sometimes difficult to deal with the things that should be far behind us.
like tying a knot behind your back. fairly simple, but the fact that you can't see it makes you that much more afraid that it'll unravel.
that you'll unravel.
it's slightly easier when you see others around you helping to erase the marks you've made. now I fear that my only formidable enemy is myself, lead-side down.
in just a year I've experienced things I'm cleearly undeserving of. new brothers and sisters from all over, and a rediscovered kindred spirit that is soooo close to best friend status (except I make it a point not to have human best friends). I've seen His hand at work, in my life, and those around me. amazing growth, potential, and the indescribable joy of teaching someone to learn and love.
like learning to live again.
mm, so the verdicts in. I lived my life for myself and could find no joy. a year back of spending my time and effort trying to live up to a dedication, and I've found more joy, purpose, and a new-found appreciation than previously thought possible.
what a dumb-by.
anyway,
it feels like having been paralyzed from the waist down, then relearning what used to come so naturally.
and after the roughest moments, I'm finally back on my two feet. sweating bullets, ensuring every step to be on solid ground.

and all I can really think about is how I can't wait to start running.

hm, that sucks.

oh hey, what's up?
oh, nothing, you?
nothing. so how bout our planet?
craazy, right?
it's interesting how these types of things seems to have the power to wake the humanitarian in me. i suddenly get all worked up, thinking that efforts and causes are what's going to fix the world. but causes don't last. i wanna donate money, plant a tree, eat right, educate others. bahahhahah! somehow the idealist and realist meet and shows itself to simply be human, recognizing the need for GIUP (v: HELP). anyway, i couldnt help but get overly sad over the state of the entire world, and further frown at the fact that people dont know the real solution. then i remind myself that there is, and that we've got a privilege beyond any other to educate others. needless to say, it's beyond sanjay, steve, and anderson.
i guess i had no idea that i loved anderson so much. and sanjay is such a pie, that YEAH I WOULD, I SOOO WOULD. HES A DOCTOR. and poor steve, with the elephant. but how hilarious was the prelude to that shot? you know, the voice-over with anderson, when he goes, "but watch what happens to steve's arm," and you think that something wonderful and cute and wonderful and cutely wonderful is going to happen, but he instead gets attacked. hahahhahaa, who laughed? HAHAHHAHAA, we did. anyway, what's up with China and their exotic palates? i got slightly pissed. like, seriously? a billion people and you all need that bear-bile? i seriously cried at that shot. cried. i wanted to rip the china-made shirt off my back and burn it in protest. but that does nothing, hahahaha. anyway, i thoroughly enjoyed watching it, despite the fact that it left me more sad. it's more like a reaffirmation that when things are so haywire, we muuust be that much closer to a solution. and now i'm watching food network's food challenge. i love food challenges. love.

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i really wanna make a cheesecake. our oven is broken and i found out we have a spring-form pan. or whatever its called.
i also recently favoritededed this interesting find from msn.
dont you love msn? i feel lost if it's not my homepage. i get half of my current useless knowledge from random articles. and i love the slate. i go, HAH HAH HAH, like that. ughhh this is the stupidest blog ive ever wrtten. boo.

i like it!

THIS MAKES ME SO LAME,

IT HURTS.




this makes me suck, but i havent made a blog in a while, and im sick of seeing that stupid phone.
uhhh, so i wanted this haircut, right.

I know that it's a boy. But he's got the greatest hair ever. Color and all. But mostly cut. Mostly those bangs. And to top it off, he's copying the cat. Copy-cat HAHA. COPY-CAT. COPYCAT. HAHAHAHA.




anyway, so this is to show heen. and to finally just have a new blog. and i've got some stupid faces on my face. and my face sucks and maybe my hair sucks but these are different views.
im also sporting my aliamanu shirt from the 8th grade. and this makes me cool.

uh this is just to show my horns and dislike.

FACES KEKEKE

ALONA LOL

anyway, this happened this morning.
happened exactly like that, im not making it up.
we could go right now and do it and show you how it happened, cause i remember it so well. anyway, alona knows that there's nothing funnier than the fact that this phone looks like a musubi. she knows because she said it. HAHAHAHAHA.
except she also knows that there is something funnier.
that something funnier is that janelle has this phone.
but this phone is the absolute BEST, see.
here's a list of reasons why--
-it plays music.
-takes amazing pictures, with things like solar something or other.
-you could drop it and not much would happen to it. durable!
-sleek as all heck.
-it looks like food.
-janelle has it.

OH, speaking of who has it,
dylan has it. the valez kids have it. this highschool kid from mckinley had it. it's obviously in.
and so is everyone else that has it.

did i mention it also came in LILAC? not many phones do.


"K NO WORRIES I GOT YOUR BACK IMA MAKE YOU LOOK GOOD."

choob

So uh, I guess if you weren't there, you wouldn't quite care. I mean, who's the first person you look for in a photograph? Yourself? Yourself. Yourself. Right. Unless you have some unspoken affinity towards Maui or the people in the following photographs, you probably would not be interested. With that said, here is us. Here is Maui. Here are the best of friends in Maui...

but if you'd like to hear something incredibly beautiful, press play and look away.

[►] "Scenic World"-- Beirut.

(Eek, I literally put this together in an hour or so. I mean, during an episode of Winter Sonata. HAHAHA)

NEW YORK PAINT HAHA

PAINT, PAINT, ADOBE.

JUST SOME NEW YAWK STUFF MMK.

first 2 are paint, the best paint jobs ever.

the third is a big mess.

the fourth is this one:

but this is belongs to eric. hawesome!

"AHT"

every place is a house

the sounds they make

the following installment is merely an adobe art experiment, testing the opacity of 2 layered photographs. in light of my recent mood and music choice, i used (copywritten, im sure) maps and atlases' lyrics, and haleakala/maui photographs. not a unique concept, but it was easy and fun and i like it and ill do it again and this is it and that is it and this is it for now.

on another note, maps & atlases is quickly climbing up the "INSTANT FAVORITE" ladder, along with pudding and mac and cheese.
but if you hate math, then don't click.

Main Entry: won·der·ful
Pronunciation: 'w&n-d&r-f&l
Function: adjective
1 : exciting wonder : MARVELOUS, ASTONISHING
2 : unusually good : ADMIRABLE
- won·der·ful·ly /-f(&-)lE/ adverb
- won·der·ful·ness /-f&l-n&s/ noun

but if you needed another definition for
wonderful.

THERE IS NOTHING funnier THAN THE IMPOSSIBLE

Twenty.

100287-100207

GAH, IM NOT DEAD>>

I JUST H8 20.