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in case you didnt know, that thing is a face.

it's been about 27 years since i wrote something on this thing. i've been spending my time on a lot of other nonsense. sadface. life has changed a lot. sadface, but happyface too, y'know? like it's way too much to try to put into words or even attempt to document. the MOST HUGEST thing is that i'm gonna marry my bestest most favoritest person in the world. i've had a lot of favorites, but to marry a favorite is a pretty big thing. well im not lame enough to call him my "bestest most favoritest person," to his face, but he should know it. cause it goes without saying, y'know? ew this is getting sappy. anyway, it's kind of a big deal, right? it's kind of really a huge deal. it's kind of insanely intensely overwhelmingly a big deal. maybe not overwhelming. maybe just whelming.
i wish i could put a bunch of pictures up of all the wonderful times with all of my wonderful friends, but the truth is, there haven't been many. i guess this is what happens when you grow up. the pictures become less frequent, and maybe that's why they're that much more cherished and memorable. because of its scarcity.
my guess is that i'll have more time for this blog after i've gotten completely sick of brad. when im forced to seek refuge with old friends and family. or when i'm in need of a hobby to distract myself from whatever life is going to become.
but not yet. cause i love him a lot still. the kind where it's clear why. the kind where i still do my hair to look nice. and check my pits beforehand to smell nice. or look really closely in the mirror to see if im growing a mustache. and remember to wear clean clothes. and clean my room and general meeting areas when he's coming over. and where i pretend that i know how to cook.
just kidding, im past that. my mustache is growing back and i sometimes forget to wear deodorant. im kind of a slob and im kind of happy that i dont have to hide the fact that sometimes id rather throw clothes on the ground and knock out than spend the time cleaning.
anyway, that's my life right now.
because being with him is so much better than not being with him. ugh. it's so lame, i love it.