Turn On Me -- The Shins

You can fake it for a while, bite your tongue and smile, like every mother does her ugly child. But it starts to leaking out, like spittle from a cloud, amassed resentment pelting ounce and pound. You entertaining any doubts, 'cause you had to know that I was fond of you. Fond of Y-O-U. Though I knew you masked your disdain I can see the change was just too hard for us, you always had to hold the reigns, but where I'm headed you just don't know the way.

So affections fade away, or do adults just learn to play, the most ridiculous repulsive games? All our favorite ruddy sons, and their double-barrelled guns, you'd better hurry rabbit, run, run, run! 'Cause mincing you is fun, and there's a lot of hungry hatters in this world set on taking over. But brittle thorny stems, they break before they bend, and neither one of us is one of them.

And the tears will never mend, 'cause you had it in for me so long ago. I don't know why and I don't care, well hardly anymore. If you'd only seen yourself hating me, when I'd been so much more than fair. But then you'd have to lay those feelings bare. The one thing I know has still got you scared. Yeah all that cold ire, and never once aired on a dare!

You had to know know that I was fond of you. Fond of Y-O-U. So I took your licks at the time. A change like that is just so hard to do, don't let it whip-crack you life. And I'll bow out from the fight - Those old pious sisters were right - the worst part is over, now get back on that horse and ride.

i think i might be over it.

GRoR,ToT,aGROT

GENERAL RULES OF RULE, THUMBS OF THUMB, AND RULES OF THUMB

its just that,
if you have to hide it, it's probably not a good thing. and if it's the words that you love, then when you have to catch your breath, it's probably just cause your heart's not healthy or maybe you've just drank or eaten something thick, like a milkshake. or maybe it's just heartburn. and if you cant stop thinking about it, it's just an intense like (verb), which isn't love. basically, it's not love because love is honest. and if youre not being honest to others then youre most likely not being honest with yourself.
it's just that,
the definition of a man differs with every person. but for us, with such unique circumstances, the amount of bricks he has, the amount he is able to carry, or the ones of gold he has in the bank matters very little. so he's the epitome of the physical man, with some endearing emotional qualities. so what? i guess i recently learned that in the long run, the physical man cannot support the spiritual woman.
it's just that,
to say a situation is complicated is a general cop-out. a blanket statement for something you probably just dont want to do. it's not complicated.

unless by complicated you mean....

Main Entry:
1com·plex
Pronunciation:
\ˈkäm-ˌpleks\
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Late Latin complexus totality, from Latin, embrace, from complecti
Date:
1643
1: a whole made up of complicated or interrelated parts
2 a: a group of culture traits relating to a single activity (as hunting), process (as use of flint), or culture unit b (1): a group of repressed desires and memories that exerts a dominating influence upon the personality (2): an exaggerated reaction to or preoccupation with a subject or situation c: a group of obviously related units of which the degree and nature of the relationship is imperfectly known d: the sum of factors (as symptoms) characterizing a disease or condition
3: a chemical association of two or more species (as ions or molecules) joined usually by weak electrostatic bonds rather than covalent bonds
4: a building or group of buildings housing related units

so tell me, is it 1 or 2?
well anyway, i've learned oh so many things, like how difficult it can be to take correction, especially when you see those giving it to you as being so flawed. but i guess it's the general act of taking off the blinders that's at times difficult. but maybe we just shouldnt be so one-track minded, listening to one person and one person only, literally closing the door to others. if majority wins, then maybe majority's right about things. and yes, this can prove true even if majority doesnt know the exact specifics. sometimes it's just about principal. to overanalyze and overcomplicate something to death is probably being done to justify an action.
it's just that,
when things like ultimatums are given by people in no real position to be demanding or expecting things, then yes, a considerable amount of respect will be lost, and rightfully so.
and if chalk lines have been blurred, maybe you should not have drawn them in chalk.
maybe try a sharpie next time.
or it's like when someone asks you for a dollar and you're so adamant about not giving it to them. you stand by it and you say no, no way, not this dollar, not my dollar, even going as far as reasoning with them why it is this dollar cannot be theirs, and how this dollar is going somewhere else. but then you give them 2 dollars worth of minutes and time and words and actions and smitteness.
so no, it's not complicated. it's probably just hard.
and ok, maybe it doesnt have to be hard.
it's like building a mountain with your bare hands, day by day, conversation by conversation,
then crying over the fact that youre going to have to climb it later.
it's not hard if you stop while it's still a mole-hill.

so yeah

oh then i googled rules of thumb, and here's an actual real one thats not even made up,

"Principles don't change with circumstances. That's what makes them
principles."

George Colombo

oh also, that's not even a rule of thumb. this page i was on was all of these life quotes. so um, that doesnt count, but everything else still stands.

Lasse, Italy, Cello, Etc

Directed by Lasse Gjertsen
Copyrights: Casa Musicale Sonzogno, Milan, 2007



how can one remain unmoved?


compel
Main Entry:
com·pel
Pronunciation:
\kəm-ˈpel\
Function:
transitive verb
Inflected Form(s):
com·pelled; com·pel·ling
Etymology:
Middle English compellen, from Anglo-French compeller, from Latin compellere, from com- + pellere to drive — more at felt
Date:
14th century
1: to drive or urge forcefully or irresistibly
2: to cause to do or occur by overwhelming pressure
3archaic : to drive together


my heart is in Norway, and I'm kind of in love with Lasse right now.

The Backyardigans

and we're...


YOUR BACKYARD FRIENDS, THE BACKYARDIGANS
TOGETHER IN THE BACKYARD AGAINNN

(in the place that we belong,
where we'll probably sing a song,
and we'll maybe dance along)

WE'VE GOT THE WHOLE WILD WORLD IN OUR YARD TO EXPLORE
WE ALWAYS FIND THINGS WE'VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE
THAT'S WHY EVERYDAY WE BEG MORE
WITH YOUR FRENDS, THE BACKYARDIGANS


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hey guys! sandra here, coming out from the rock i was apparently living under. seriously, where did these wonderful creatures come from? why does my heart grow two and half sizes when i hear pablo sing? they've got this toy that spins around, lifts its arms, knocks its head back, then taps his foot to the beat. ...and a tear drops from my eye, on the inside of course. but i watched it sing 5 consecutive times in a row. i couldnt get that voice out of my head, i haaad to youtube it. and as much as i laughed at parodies, or ridiculous pairings with salt n peppa, i couldnt help but be truly impacted by real clips from the show. backyardigans, where can i get more of you? pablo, why are you so cute? tyrone, you're an orange black guy. NICE. and uniqua...no seriously, what .... are you? it's wonderful how they're teaching children to accept those with spots, disabilities, or medical conditions as UNIQU(E)A. aka different. beautiful.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




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I am so annoyed about the Volcano Sisters' attitude

It's a mystery of human chemistry and I dont understand it. Some
people, as far as their senses are concerned, just feel like home.

-Rob, High Fidelity

08 REPORT

gahhhhguhhhguhhh, so it's only the 3rd of january 08 and why do things not feel so different?
it's pretty sad that 07 flew by so fast, but not much else can be said. december was pretty much a whirlwind of events and emotions, every day feeling shorter than the day before. idk.

but it's 2008. "AFTER ALL, IT'S 2008, AFTER ALL......"

with that said, im feeling it hard when i think about class coming to a close. im not sure that ive gotten much better than i was before. well, im sure i have but it may not be enough. well, it's not enough. yeah it's not enough. other things come with time and discipline, and only when used in conjunction with one another. time, i can maybe find. discipline, not so eaaasy.

so far my purchasing has been... um, haphazard is not the correct word, but my timing is allll wronggg.

cause i was like, OH HEY, HEY GUYS, IMA BUY SOME CDS OFF AMAZON CAUSE OH HEY, HEY GUYS, WHY NOT? YOU KNOW, WHY NOT GUYS? I HAVENT BOUGHT ONE IN A WHILE. SO LET'S MAKE UP FOR IT AND GET 3.

well it was free shipping, and i can wait, and im not one to be impatient.

oh but i would have reconsidered buying those 3 cds if i knew i was gonna be cracking a guitar this week. yeah, if i knew that i was about to kill sparky, or have sparky die in my hands because of natural causes and old age, then maybe just one cd, or perhaps just NONE would have been bought. like for real, if i thought id be puking out of nervousness at the thought of breaking the news to eric, sparky's owner, i would have been a little more prudent. like HOW MANY MOES in my care and it only decides to break now, in the middle of writing a song........

----lol do you like how i ended that? i ended it making you think that i was going to successfully write one; as if i were making all of this creative progress. as if the guitar breaking was the only thing holding me back from writing something wonderful, amazing, or wonderfully amazing. i WAS practicing, though. maybe i played weezer too hard. impossible! maybe sparky got sad that i only knew 6 chords. suicide? guiticide. im sorry.

xin loi, anh eric. rat xin loi. toi khong biet se lam. i have no diacritics cause im lazy. nhung, toi se REPLACE do.

oh but on a kind of cool note, here's... us, i guess. aaaaand, some people that ive truly grown to love (yeu thuong) and respect (kinh). if you make me laugh to the point where i cant hold a pencil to write, then mannn, you're amazing.






anyway, theses are just play-time/out-of-class moments with our teacher and some classmates. im putting just these up so that you don't take us seriously. you'll say and think, "OH DRABDRAB, WHAT TIME WASTED!" and scoff and spit a little when you scoff, and then later we'll be all up in your face, all native and legal and legit and TOI BIET'ING ALL THAT TIENG VIET, VA ALL THAT GOOD STUFF, AND YOU'LL BE ALL TRIPPING ON THE OUTSIDE THINKING "TOI KHONG BIET NHUNG CHI BIET NOI TIENG VIET, D.C.T.!" BUT YOU'LL BE THINKING IT IN ENGLISH, AND ILL BE ABLE TO TRANSLATE YOUR THOUGHTS INTO TIENG VIET. AND THAT'S A BIG INYAFACE THING, you get? ILL BE SAYING THESE TIENG VIET IDIOMS AND YOULL BE FEELING LIKE AN ENGLISH IDIOT anyway, that's the plan, so i guess i have to study so i can humiliate some people later.......


jaykay. as always.

real pictures of the actual class to come.

70113,
08 sandra.

px,
click on the broken-hearted robot to see the wrEckage i did to E-Wreck's guitar.

aya, pXX,

for those wondering, the cd i originally was going to purchase on its own was "In Rainbows"-- Radiohead. okay, so scoff and spit, but im so excited that maybe i should not have opted for free shipping, and paid that extra 5 to get it here quick...

OH WHO AM I KIDDING? I HAVE A GUITAR TO PAY FOR.

i also got a mars volta cd. so shoot me. but it's been a while, and ill feel the effects of my purchases later.